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Post by Deleted on Dec 16, 2014 19:12:07 GMT -5
L0L she's Armenian, you Iconspastic. jk heynow
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Post by 2foolish on Dec 16, 2014 19:27:31 GMT -5
Isn't that the whole point? Getting fucked up and addicted to shit?! Getting fucked up? Terriffic. Getting addicted? Not so much. dentist gave me oxy for pulling wisdom tooth a couple of years ago...worst drug i ever took...made me feel unbelievable and my head started to crave...
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Post by Jets Things on Dec 16, 2014 19:29:19 GMT -5
Getting fucked up? Terriffic. Getting addicted? Not so much. dentist gave me oxy for pulling wisdom tooth a couple of years ago...worst drug i ever took...made me feel unbelievable and my head started to crave... Had those when I tore my hamstring years ago. Hated them.
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Post by Gunnails on Dec 16, 2014 19:55:09 GMT -5
Getting fucked up? Terriffic. Getting addicted? Not so much. dentist gave me oxy for pulling wisdom tooth a couple of years ago...worst drug i ever took...made me feel unbelievable and my head started to crave... Nephew took a bunch of Oxy something yesterday, tried to OD on them,, some how throuigh social media or something someone figured out what was up and called the Police, he's living in my parents house and they are in assisted living, the neighbors call my Mom and say WTF 6 cop cars, 2 fire trucks, ambulamps, and the door has been kicked in. Mom called me and I was on the other side opf town. Get there and the kid has already been transported, EMT's saved his life with some sort of counter drug? Depression runs in the family and he is my second nephew to attempt suicide,, I guess that Brad is bi polar? And his meds were late being mailed by the VA? Poor kid, I had no idea he was hurting so much, but that's what my family does, hide the pain, show no weakness. Whats a loving Uncle to do?
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Post by thebigragu on Dec 16, 2014 21:09:00 GMT -5
Im addicted to ativan. Im at the top dose. I don't abuse it, but my doctor will never take me off it he said. Ever. Special circumstances I guess. I told him I don't need it. He told me look at your life before it. Also when I did stop that uncontrolled anger temper was back immediately. He has zero doubt if I stop I pick up right where I left off years ago. No drugs for sociopaths. Zoloft. Paxil depakote thorazine, I been on the all. Ativan has worked the longest. Gonna ween myself down off them again
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Post by Hotman on Dec 17, 2014 1:36:20 GMT -5
Im addicted to ativan. Im at the top dose. I don't abuse it, but my doctor will never take me off it he said. Ever. Special circumstances I guess. I told him I don't need it. He told me look at your life before it. Also when I did stop that uncontrolled anger temper was back immediately. He has zero doubt if I stop I pick up right where I left off years ago. No drugs for sociopaths. Zoloft. Paxil depakote thorazine, I been on the all. Ativan has worked the longest. Gonna ween myself down off them again Wason the brink of coma more times than I will know from Ativan and bad DR advice because the shit wouldn't work and asshole refused to give me xanax which my whole family is on, we have chemical shit, through generations.. Finally another dr gave me klonopin and what ya know! It works! I was taking 6mg of Ativan 3 times a day and drinking on the shit, I felt fine... Was never over the edge. Then I guess a flip goes and you black out and I apparently said some crazy shit and was just kind of off the wall... Not out of control tho.. totally functional. Some people didn't even realize apparently. But I knew there was a big problem when this hot ass lil babe I was seeing, she was also on tons of meds and unstable, but sweet, good chick... Sang Italian Opera.. fucking score. Would have never lasted and I knew it, at 19 turning 20, but still who knows, we would have had plenty of good times and a perfect match at the time. I blacked out I guess, went home (probably drove) you don't know, you feel normal and fine and nobody ever though I appeared drunk, totally coherent and everything! But I obviously said some real hurtful shit to her I had no clue about the next day, she says don't ever wanna talk to you again, you said enough last night... Though it was a joke. Then catching wind of several other encounters over the past month or more I had no clue about at all. Thought it was a big joke. Turns out I was having Retrograde Amnesia. Talk about a confusing mindfuck. So I left town and went to see other Drs who shed some light on the shit. No telling how many comas I was on the brink of. Dozens upon dozens. I'll stop here for now because gonna try to sleep, now I'm at 30 some hours and my target time, But the Klonopin was/is not for insomnia. For Major anxiety disorders/ptsd/etc the list goes on. The Trazadone was for insomnia strictly, Serequel also which I shredded every dr trying to push that poison on me. Terrible drug. Bottom line is they are ALL horrible and I've been on every one mentioned here. Weened myself off all of them because they don't fucking work and make you unpredictible and out of control out of nowhere. the Klonopin I DO need tho. Have had several Drs, best in their field, Mass General, McLean all that shit, tell me I may have to take it for life in some dosage or another. I have a very small emergency supply. Only about 10 now, but I have anxiety pretty much 24 hours a day. I take it when I feel like I might start puking and overheating. Some fucked up shit. That's cliffs for you Jetworks see this post about the benzos.. not for insomnia at all. BTW love that the @ thing works. Badass. I was actually prescribed vicodin for my insomnia for almost a year after an accident, had a concussion and bad neck problems, w spine injections and shit. Fuck that. Had a headache that lasted for 2 years I think maybe still there but just got used to it. Had to take Vicodin to sleep. I nursed it. Halved my doses and chased with a couple beers, it did the trick. Guarantee that kinda shit saved my life.
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Post by Hotman on Dec 17, 2014 2:03:53 GMT -5
That shit is all jumbled and random but trying to hit on parts of all those posts bc I really gotta try to crash... I'll have to break it down a bit more but I'm getting the impression most of you didn't know about a lot of this shit. I probably only casually mentioned bits and pieces that went unnoticed. That may have been my point, actually.. haha. But I've grown to like some of you and trust your opinions enough and I'll just say it now, NOTHING any of you say would ever be able to hurt me. So no eggshells here. That's why I'll dish it out too. I'm not looking for sympathy and I'm not looking for counseling. Not saying I wouldn't enjoy discussing any of it at all. Just wanna make it clear this wasn't expected and don't want people getting the wrong idea about where I'm coming from. And I'm not a bullshitter. I speak shit how it is and I don't hold back. I bet most of you thought I was trolling with some outrageous shit I've said on JI, particularly involving my ex (lolz) every fucking word is true. Anyways, I'll have to explain some of these meds histories and shit soon. Especially now I know for true that some of you have been on Ativan, Traz, Prozac, Zoloft, Ether, etc etc... We may need a new forum bros. Not even kidding.
Hopefully I can get 7 hours in starting now tho. Fuck.
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Post by Gunnails on Dec 17, 2014 2:32:27 GMT -5
Man, we are a fucked up bunch.
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Post by Hotman on Dec 17, 2014 4:04:09 GMT -5
Man, we are a fucked up bunch. Creme de la Creme y le Misfit Toys. Why do you think it works?! This is no accident.... si tratta di un disastro cazzo
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Post by Fishooked on Dec 17, 2014 7:32:17 GMT -5
L0L she's Armenian, you Iconspastic. jk heynow It's all Greek to me.
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Post by Jetworks on Dec 17, 2014 9:49:10 GMT -5
Im addicted to ativan. Im at the top dose. I don't abuse it, but my doctor will never take me off it he said. Ever. Special circumstances I guess. I told him I don't need it. He told me look at your life before it. Also when I did stop that uncontrolled anger temper was back immediately. He has zero doubt if I stop I pick up right where I left off years ago. No drugs for sociopaths. Zoloft. Paxil depakote thorazine, I been on the all. Ativan has worked the longest. Gonna ween myself down off them again Like I said, I'm not a fan of long-term benzo use. Here and there is great. Surprised that depakote didn't work. Did they try one of the other mood-stabilizing AEDs, like lamotrigine? SSRIs/SNRIs are tricky shits to get right. Eventually most people find one that works, but between reaching therapeutic levels and weening off to try another one, it's a long process, one that most people get fed up with.
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Post by southside on Dec 17, 2014 11:16:30 GMT -5
Im addicted to ativan. Im at the top dose. I don't abuse it, but my doctor will never take me off it he said. Ever. Special circumstances I guess. I told him I don't need it. He told me look at your life before it. Also when I did stop that uncontrolled anger temper was back immediately. He has zero doubt if I stop I pick up right where I left off years ago. No drugs for sociopaths. Zoloft. Paxil depakote thorazine, I been on the all. Ativan has worked the longest. Gonna ween myself down off them again Like I said, I'm not a fan of long-term benzo use. Here and there is great. Surprised that depakote didn't work. Did they try one of the other mood-stabilizing AEDs, like lamotrigine? SSRIs/SNRIs are tricky shits to get right. Eventually most people find one that works, but between reaching therapeutic levels and weening off to try another one, it's a long process, one that most people get fed up with. Been there, done that. I'm completely drug free. It's not easy but I've found that for me it's possible to deal with things from a psychological therapy instead of taking a salt every morning.
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Post by Deleted on Dec 17, 2014 13:06:45 GMT -5
Im addicted to ativan. Im at the top dose. I don't abuse it, but my doctor will never take me off it he said. Ever. Special circumstances I guess. I told him I don't need it. He told me look at your life before it. Also when I did stop that uncontrolled anger temper was back immediately. He has zero doubt if I stop I pick up right where I left off years ago. No drugs for sociopaths. Zoloft. Paxil depakote thorazine, I been on the all. Ativan has worked the longest. Gonna ween myself down off them again Like I said, I'm not a fan of long-term benzo use. Here and there is great. Surprised that depakote didn't work. Did they try one of the other mood-stabilizing AEDs, like lamotrigine? SSRIs/SNRIs are tricky shits to get right. Eventually most people find one that works, but between reaching therapeutic levels and weening off to try another one, it's a long process, one that most people get fed up with. It's brutal. I had a 6 year run of Nortriptyline (theraputic window was 75/mg night). Got off that. 2 years later; okay Zoloft! 6 months later felt urge to dig at my temple with a fork, to get to the creamy center. I just called the psych on that one; she said take this Trazadone when you want. Just be careful. But I noticed - the temporary lift from that was felt a full 18-24 hours LATER. I have never associated "feeling good" with the T; just the spacy head from when it comes on. Fucking genius; I hate taking it; love having the foresight to take it; to enjoy a "good day" when the pressure is on. Actual results may vary; don't sue me. It's all fun and games, until the drunk guy poops in the catbox.
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Post by 2foolish on Dec 17, 2014 13:15:06 GMT -5
dentist gave me oxy for pulling wisdom tooth a couple of years ago...worst drug i ever took...made me feel unbelievable and my head started to crave... Nephew took a bunch of Oxy something yesterday, tried to OD on them,, some how throuigh social media or something someone figured out what was up and called the Police, he's living in my parents house and they are in assisted living, the neighbors call my Mom and say WTF 6 cop cars, 2 fire trucks, ambulamps, and the door has been kicked in. Mom called me and I was on the other side opf town. Get there and the kid has already been transported, EMT's saved his life with some sort of counter drug? Depression runs in the family and he is my second nephew to attempt suicide,, I guess that Brad is bi polar? And his meds were late being mailed by the VA? Poor kid, I had no idea he was hurting so much, but that's what my family does, hide the pain, show no weakness. Whats a loving Uncle to do? so sorry,hope he pulls thru and starts to enjoy life...
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Post by Fishooked on Dec 17, 2014 13:17:59 GMT -5
Like I said, I'm not a fan of long-term benzo use. Here and there is great. Surprised that depakote didn't work. Did they try one of the other mood-stabilizing AEDs, like lamotrigine? SSRIs/SNRIs are tricky shits to get right. Eventually most people find one that works, but between reaching therapeutic levels and weening off to try another one, it's a long process, one that most people get fed up with. It's brutal. I had a 6 year run of Nortriptyline (theraputic window was 75/mg night). Got off that. 2 years later; okay Zoloft! 6 months later felt urge to dig at my temple with a fork, to get to the creamy center. I just called the psych on that one; she said take this Trazadone when you want. Just be careful. But I noticed - the temporary lift from that was felt a full 18-24 hours LATER. I have never associated "feeling good" with the T; just the spacy head from when it comes on. Fucking genius; I hate taking it; love having the foresight to take it; to enjoy a "good day" when the pressure is on. Actual results may vary; don't sue me. It's all fun and games, until the drunk guy poops in the catbox. Rock the catbox, rock the catbox...That's some visual though, I can see you're Greek wife throwing plates at you to knock it off...
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