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Post by Bing© in Buffalo Chairman on Oct 6, 2015 21:07:03 GMT -5
Lol the title was me....from no more to none more....what's wrong with that?? Same meaning That's fine Bing, just none more, okay. Oh this place is wound tighter than a 3 dollar watch sometimes...jeez
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Post by thebigragu on Oct 6, 2015 21:14:48 GMT -5
thebigragu that picture in the hospital is Art. Is your sister a professional photographer? LOL no she literally though i was a ghost or was doing a death walk to a bar somewhere never to be seen again. I was looking off that way like taht because the doctor was yelling about how i ripped all my ivs out of my hand there you can see n the picture on my left hand. I literally had been off my feet for months. I know your fucking with me
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Post by Bing© in Buffalo Chairman on Oct 6, 2015 21:17:31 GMT -5
thebigragu that picture in the hospital is Art. Is your sister a professional photographer? LOL no she literally though i was a ghost or was doing a death walk to a bar somewhere never to be seen again. I was looking off that way like taht because the doctor was yelling about how i ripped all my ivs out of my hand there you can see n the picture on my left hand. I literally had been off my feet for months. I know your fucking with me Holy fuck man....I never knew you were that Ill . you really are one tough and strong willed motherfucker....honored to call you my partner brother.
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Post by The Tax Returns Are in Kenya on Oct 6, 2015 21:17:56 GMT -5
thebigragu that picture in the hospital is Art. Is your sister a professional photographer? LOL no she literally though i was a ghost or was doing a death walk to a bar somewhere never to be seen again. I was looking off that way like taht because the doctor was yelling about how i ripped all my ivs out of my hand there you can see n the picture on my left hand. I literally had been off my feet for months. I know your fucking with me No I am not. That is an incredible picture. It evokes all the backstory and details you are describing, just by looking at it. You don't need to say it, the picture is saying it. The way it is almost all black/white with that little hint of color is incredible. Did she put it through some kind of filter to get that effect? That black suit looks like it is not real, like it is drawn, and the way it hangs you can see the person underneath has been through hell. It is literally spine tingling. If she has any aspirations she could submit that to a juried show and probably win something. (PS sorry to hear you are miserable, I thought you were really enjoying your new job and new life).
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Post by thebigragu on Oct 6, 2015 21:38:57 GMT -5
LOL no she literally though i was a ghost or was doing a death walk to a bar somewhere never to be seen again. I was looking off that way like taht because the doctor was yelling about how i ripped all my ivs out of my hand there you can see n the picture on my left hand. I literally had been off my feet for months. I know your fucking with me No I am not. That is an incredible picture. It evokes all the backstory and details you are describing, just by looking at it. You don't need to say it, the picture is saying it. The way it is almost all black/white with that little hint of color is incredible. If she has any aspirations she could submit that to a juried show and probably win something. Well Honest to God what your seeing is a miracle as it happened on that floor. I literally had some sort of encounter the nght before and my heart had stopped again it was happening daily and it was the end. I had been on the run the last 3 years prior to that and was out of my sisters brother and mothers life for a decade so they were all there. Most the time i didnt even know who was who and was always worried about the dea and money my head was stuck in the past. Until that night. They had been pumping 13 liters of fluid out of my gut for 4 weeks daily and 2 liters from my chest cavity when I had my experience. My sister was on night death watch and it was early morning when boom I was told to get up and Go and that's what I did and i never looked back. I forgave everything and everyone in my past as hard as it was, and turned my back on my old life. It has not been easy as time goes on But I made a promise to my creator that day and I told him i would never return to my old form. And believe me I been tested ive had offers but i will never be able to put into words what happened that night morning. I couldnt speak to another person for a week, I think thats why the picture speaks alot of words especially when i talk about my life to young punks in lock up or at a group home halfway house. Its almost a Resurrection. My nurse fainted then the nurse who sent me from saint vincents when i was sick there fainted when i walked in for blood work a month later. My doctor was a rabid atheist and during the time said i think i just became a believer in God. Because my mother kept telling her since i was a kid God had a plan for me and this was not the end. you got to remember not my first time in death crisis bullet in my skull shanked times in my liver. My mother knew I didnt. Only thing i can say is I never spoke to god anymore but 2 nights before that happened i reminded him i never once asked him to save my life or spare me from where was going i only asked for some dignity and strength like he gave his son on his way to death. That was all I had been totally humbled lost millions a wife a son 3 houses cars any and all muscle and the worst part even my anger that kept me alive all those years left me at the end. God blessed me further ill spend the rest of my life helping out the best i can anyone and everyone i cross paths with in need. Im still an asshole but im quick to forgive and apologize. I do the best i can. Thats why that picture is so powerful to me you're seeing someone totally humbled and then born again with a second or third chance
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Post by Bing© in Buffalo Chairman on Oct 6, 2015 21:55:43 GMT -5
Unreal...you're one of the lucky ones...God took my son from me 2 1/2 years ago for reasons I will never understand...Cancer 3 times...beat it twice..never smoked or partied much..just a great kid and man..Watched him go from 185 to 145 lbs in 3 months...even as his body was riddled with Cancer he never complained much. I think he knew his time was up.. Watched and held him as he took his last peaceful breath...I can tell you one thing I took from it was I'm not at all afraid to die...not at all. And I'm going to live my life, no regrets, and not fear death at all...
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Post by Hotman on Oct 6, 2015 22:09:21 GMT -5
LOL no she literally though i was a ghost or was doing a death walk to a bar somewhere never to be seen again. I was looking off that way like taht because the doctor was yelling about how i ripped all my ivs out of my hand there you can see n the picture on my left hand. I literally had been off my feet for months. I know your fucking with me No I am not. That is an incredible picture. It evokes all the backstory and details you are describing, just by looking at it. You don't need to say it, the picture is saying it. The way it is almost all black/white with that little hint of color is incredible. Did she put it through some kind of filter to get that effect? That black suit looks like it is not real, like it is drawn, and the way it hangs you can see the person underneath has been through hell. It is literally spine tingling. If she has any aspirations she could submit that to a juried show and probably win something. (PS sorry to hear you are miserable, I thought you were really enjoying your new job and new life). You impress me yet again.. and a touch of class to go with it, m'lady.
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Post by thebigragu on Oct 6, 2015 22:22:33 GMT -5
A name change thread un fucking believable everyone here is as crazy as I am
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Post by Bing© in Buffalo Chairman on Oct 6, 2015 22:26:09 GMT -5
I'm much more fucked up mentally than youll ever be.... . I think I'm emotionally numb mostly....kinda PTSD ish
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Post by Hotman on Oct 6, 2015 22:37:24 GMT -5
I'm much more fucked up mentally than youll ever be.... . I think I'm emotionally numb mostly....kinda PTSD ish I knew we had more in common then just the Jets
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Post by thebigragu on Oct 6, 2015 22:44:21 GMT -5
I'm much more fucked up mentally than youll ever be.... . I think I'm emotionally numb mostly....kinda PTSD ish Its expected with what happened. Hardest thing a person can go through. Fuck it we will swing by Buffalo thanksgiving we are taking a 7 day vacation arounf thanksgiving. Maybe ill go pick a fight with rex in a hampur shirt get us some publicity
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Post by Bing© in Buffalo Chairman on Oct 6, 2015 22:50:00 GMT -5
I'm much more fucked up mentally than youll ever be.... . I think I'm emotionally numb mostly....kinda PTSD ish Its expected with what happened. Hardest thing a person can go through. Fuck it we will swing by Buffalo thanksgiving we are taking a 7 day vacation arounf thanksgiving. Maybe ill go pick a fight with rex in a hampur shirt get us some publicity I'd love to have you at my home on Thanksgiving... Breaking bread...
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Post by Hotman on Oct 6, 2015 22:52:41 GMT -5
I'm much more fucked up mentally than youll ever be.... . I think I'm emotionally numb mostly....kinda PTSD ish Its expected with what happened. Hardest thing a person can go through. Fuck it we will swing by Buffalo thanksgiving we are taking a 7 day vacation arounf thanksgiving. Maybe ill go pick a fight with rex in a hampur shirt get us some publicity
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Post by ryu79 on Oct 6, 2015 23:11:45 GMT -5
What a thread. Some serious stuff here. Ragu congrats on turning your life around, inspiring stuff. Bing, heart goes out to you regarding your son.
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Post by thebigragu on Oct 6, 2015 23:21:07 GMT -5
What a thread. Some serious stuff here. Ragu congrats on turning your life around, inspiring stuff. Bing, heart goes out to you regarding your son. Sorry we do this from time to time. Used to freak people out in the old hampur. They be like weren't they just tearing each other to shreds then this shit. Then I usually start a noahs ark thread
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