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Post by Hotman on Dec 16, 2014 2:30:28 GMT -5
Nah, ship not sinking, same as it always was, you were just too drunk to notice that's all. Hobby up dat Ginger Beer and when the time comes chill with a good high grade Low-THC High-CBD cannabis. Green Card style
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Post by jetstream23 on Dec 16, 2014 10:37:10 GMT -5
I'm on a roller coaster right now. I'll have days where I hate my life. Then I'll get some perspective and I'll realize that I'm enjoying the shit out of it. And its the good kind of enjoyment. It's been a rough few days to say the least. Hang in there dude. Stay positive and when you're down just think about your favorite football team and enjoy the current winning streak that they're on. And, when you think your life sucks and things are miserable....just log on to Scout and look around. You'll feel a million times better about yourself.
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Post by southside on Dec 16, 2014 10:41:54 GMT -5
Another day, another yay.
Time for breakfast. Then humping the rock. Stoked for a good day.
Positive thinking to trick myself. I hear it works.
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Post by Hotman on Dec 16, 2014 11:51:24 GMT -5
Another day, another yay. Time for breakfast. Then humping the rock. Stoked for a good day. Positive thinking to trick myself. I hear it works. You should look for some shit to do like checking out a recording studio while they're in there tracking or some other shit like that. Most of the time those people are just drinking coffee too.
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Post by thebigragu on Dec 16, 2014 11:51:26 GMT -5
Another day, another yay. Time for breakfast. Then humping the rock. Stoked for a good day. Positive thinking to trick myself. I hear it works. Yeah they used to say someone like that to me. Fake it till you make it. I was much worse in the end, I drank a handle of vodka a day plus whatever at bars and at my restaurant in Florida. I tried to stop drinking for five years,probably more. I had no bottom as they referred to because I already been institutionalized, imprisoned, and it didn't seem that bad considering my childhood. Only one guy some x biker big time dealer, total mean bastard had it right. I was going to my deathbed with a drink in my hand. That would be my bottom. With the liver he was right. I coukd sit here and tell you it will somehow be different for you if you continue to rationalize your problem. We all did that. We all said just once in awhile, just on weekends, once I get my life back on tracker. Then I'll drink like everyone else. I'll be a normal drinker. It's a gene it's passed on. Some are alcoholics some aren't. It's a medically universally accepted disease. There is no normal drinking for you. It affects your brain and chemical make up differently. One is to many and a thousand drinks aren't enough. You are an alcoholic Southside. Nothing to be ashamed of. But you are, the next years you waste trying to rationalize will just make the road that much longer. I don't know shit about you, but I know an alcoholic even over the internet. Once you realize there's a probably. And you express it, and you think you have to stop drinking, you already been there quite some time. The end is the same for everyone, hospital, prison, death. No alcoholic that continues to use reaches a different end. I visited all three. Stop thinking you can ever drink normally your lying to yourself. And in the beginning the drinking stoos the anxiety attacks. In the end it takes more and more and more until the liver can't keep up. Nothing can make you realize this. You can be warned because I we have been right where your at. And some guy was lecturer me, and I said yeah yeah yeah and took a swig if vodka from my water bottle at the gym. That's how bad it gets for everyone. Watch leaving las vegas. There is a reason alcoholics dread that movie it seems so far fetched to some. To others that kind of nightmare was real. No one here can help you. Go to a meeting where your bullshit rationalization on normal drinking will be torn to shreds. I like you, but im doing you an injustice if I continue to hold your hand in your denial. I lost to many friends and family ti addiction. And it's the one thing I take very seriously.
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Post by Hotman on Dec 16, 2014 11:56:17 GMT -5
Gootz, would you consider me a alcoholic?
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Post by southside on Dec 16, 2014 12:04:12 GMT -5
Another day, another yay. Time for breakfast. Then humping the rock. Stoked for a good day. Positive thinking to trick myself. I hear it works. Yeah they used to say someone like that to me. Fake it till you make it. I was much worse in the end, I drank a handle of vodka a day plus whatever at bars and at my restaurant in Florida. I tried to stop drinking for five years,probably more. I had no bottom as they referred to because I already been institutionalized, imprisoned, and it didn't seem that bad considering my childhood. Only one guy some x biker big time dealer, total mean bastard had it right. I was going to my deathbed with a drink in my hand. That would be my bottom. With the liver he was right. I coukd sit here and tell you it will somehow be different for you if you continue to rationalize your problem. We all did that. We all said just once in awhile, just on weekends, once I get my life back on tracker. Then I'll drink like everyone else. I'll be a normal drinker. It's a gene it's passed on. Some are alcoholics some aren't. It's a medically universally accepted disease. There is no normal drinking for you. It affects your brain and chemical make up differently. One is to many and a thousand drinks aren't enough. You are an alcoholic Southside. Nothing to be ashamed of. But you are, the next years you waste trying to rationalize will just make the road that much longer. I don't know shit about you, but I know an alcoholic even over the internet. Once you realize there's a probably. And you express it, and you think you have to stop drinking, you already been there quite some time. The end is the same for everyone, hospital, prison, death. No alcoholic that continues to use reaches a different end. I visited all three. Stop thinking you can ever drink normally your lying to yourself. And in the beginning the drinking stoos the anxiety attacks. In the end it takes more and more and more until the liver can't keep up. Nothing can make you realize this. You can be warned because I we have been right where your at. And some guy was lecturer me, and I said yeah yeah yeah and took a swig if vodka from my water bottle at the gym. That's how bad it gets for everyone. Watch leaving las vegas. There is a reason alcoholics dread that movie it seems so far fetched to some. To others that kind of nightmare was real. No one here can help you. Go to a meeting where your bullshit rationalization on normal drinking will be torn to shreds. I like you, but im doing you an injustice if I continue to hold your hand in your denial. I lost to many friends and family ti addiction. And it's the one thing I take very seriously. Thanks for that. However, I think you misunderstood my post. I'm not rationalizing on drinking. I'm using positive thinking to enforce how a sober life is good. But I agree, I've seen LLV and it's definitely a terrible way to go out. I've also lived with someone that has essentially drank themselves to death... still living but the verdict has been given. Either way, whether the switch has been flipped or not, my lifestyle was heading that direction. I needed change. So far I'm succeeding. So much that other people are asking me for my advice on the matter. Now for me, some people say go to meetings and such. But I go to intensive psychological therapy twice a month so I don't go without getting some sort of help in that regard. The type of AA they show in the movies and such isn't exactly my cup of tea at the moment. However, I'm probably going to check a meeting out sooner than later. None the less, I appreciate your willingness to kick me in my ass when I need it... even though this time it wasn't necessary.
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Post by thebigragu on Dec 16, 2014 12:09:57 GMT -5
Yeah they used to say someone like that to me. Fake it till you make it. I was much worse in the end, I drank a handle of vodka a day plus whatever at bars and at my restaurant in Florida. I tried to stop drinking for five years,probably more. I had no bottom as they referred to because I already been institutionalized, imprisoned, and it didn't seem that bad considering my childhood. Only one guy some x biker big time dealer, total mean bastard had it right. I was going to my deathbed with a drink in my hand. That would be my bottom. With the liver he was right. I coukd sit here and tell you it will somehow be different for you if you continue to rationalize your problem. We all did that. We all said just once in awhile, just on weekends, once I get my life back on tracker. Then I'll drink like everyone else. I'll be a normal drinker. It's a gene it's passed on. Some are alcoholics some aren't. It's a medically universally accepted disease. There is no normal drinking for you. It affects your brain and chemical make up differently. One is to many and a thousand drinks aren't enough. You are an alcoholic Southside. Nothing to be ashamed of. But you are, the next years you waste trying to rationalize will just make the road that much longer. I don't know shit about you, but I know an alcoholic even over the internet. Once you realize there's a probably. And you express it, and you think you have to stop drinking, you already been there quite some time. The end is the same for everyone, hospital, prison, death. No alcoholic that continues to use reaches a different end. I visited all three. Stop thinking you can ever drink normally your lying to yourself. And in the beginning the drinking stoos the anxiety attacks. In the end it takes more and more and more until the liver can't keep up. Nothing can make you realize this. You can be warned because I we have been right where your at. And some guy was lecturer me, and I said yeah yeah yeah and took a swig if vodka from my water bottle at the gym. That's how bad it gets for everyone. Watch leaving las vegas. There is a reason alcoholics dread that movie it seems so far fetched to some. To others that kind of nightmare was real. No one here can help you. Go to a meeting where your bullshit rationalization on normal drinking will be torn to shreds. I like you, but im doing you an injustice if I continue to hold your hand in your denial. I lost to many friends and family ti addiction. And it's the one thing I take very seriously. Thanks for that. However, I think you misunderstood my post. I'm not rationalizing on drinking. I'm using positive thinking to enforce how a sober life is good. But I agree, I've seen LLV and it's definitely a terrible way to go out. I've also lived with someone that has essentially drank themselves to death... still living but the verdict has been given. Either way, whether the switch has been flipped or not, my lifestyle was heading that direction. I needed change. So far I'm succeeding. So much that other people are asking me for my advice on the matter. Now for me, some people say go to meetings and such. But I go to intensive psychological therapy twice a month so I don't go without getting some sort of help in that regard. The type of AA they show in the movies and such isn't exactly my cup of tea at the moment. However, I'm probably going to check a meeting out sooner than later. None the less, I appreciate your willingness to kick me in my ass when I need it... even though this time it wasn't necessary. Np i went to 4 meetings in 3 years. eExcept when i speak. Im telling you to go to a meeting not for the aa cult members but for the same fucks on the same road your on looking for a fucking friend thats sober and trying to do exactly what they are. Not to go big book circle jerking, to learn how to live sober. Thats the hardest part and that is where youll find the friends. The best friends you'll probably ever make. Thats why i say go to a meeting theres 20 guys just like you sitting there. And you both know almost everything about the other without ever having talked.
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Post by southside on Dec 16, 2014 12:13:22 GMT -5
I think the jerkoff emoticon is unnecessary. However, I keep hearing about these horny chicks and specifically from a guy I spoke to a few months ago... the meetings that I'd probably go to has some really hot chicks. Some strippers, some bar tenders, etc...
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Post by thebigragu on Dec 16, 2014 12:14:53 GMT -5
Gootz, would you consider me a alcoholic? No because you function. And i never hear a peep from you on it. Your probably a heavy user of both weed and narcotics but like many i met can put it down when they want and it really never crosses their mind when they are sober. In other words they dont even count the days of non use or feel like they accomplished anything by not using. To them they're just recharging the batteries. Thats totally separate from being an alcoholic
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Post by southside on Dec 16, 2014 12:18:06 GMT -5
Gootz, would you consider me a alcoholic? No because you function. And i never hear a peep from you on it. Your probably a heavy user of both weed and narcotics but like many i met can put it down when they want and it really never crosses their mind when they are sober. In other words they dont even count the days of non use or feel like they accomplished anything by not using. To them they're just recharging the batteries. Thats totally separate from being an alcoholic The counting is more a byproduct of my OCD. If you'll recall I also counted the days and months that I had been separated from my ex. I still know the exact date and I still count it.
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Post by Hotman on Dec 16, 2014 12:19:03 GMT -5
Gootz, would you consider me a alcoholic? No because you function. And i never hear a peep from you on it. Your probably a heavy user of both weed and narcotics but like many i met can put it down when they want and it really never crosses their mind when they are sober. In other words they dont even count the days of non use or feel like they accomplished anything by not using. To them they're just recharging the batteries. Thats totally separate from being an alcoholic
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Post by southside on Dec 16, 2014 12:20:39 GMT -5
Uhh, excuse me. I function pretty fucking well. If anything I'd be considered the Jason Kidd of IT.
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Post by Hotman on Dec 16, 2014 12:22:17 GMT -5
Uhh, excuse me. I function pretty fucking well. If anything I'd be considered the Jason Kidd of IT. Bro he was talkin to me. See the quotes?
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Post by thebigragu on Dec 16, 2014 12:22:59 GMT -5
I think the jerkoff emoticon is unnecessary. However, I keep hearing about these horny chicks and specifically from a guy I spoke to a few months ago... the meetings that I'd probably go to has some really hot chicks. Some strippers, some bar tenders, etc... More importantly. You start to feel really good knowing its not all in your head and theres a whole world full of people like you from all walks of life. Like hampurcon. x convict prison guard now nurse ex cop Fish cross whaTEVER THEY DO. My friends in sobriety i shit you not. A priest, a retired judge, a ranger airborne with more medals then fucking patton. A doctor another cop a russian we are pretty sure is a mob guy ,Manhattan real estate mogul, and a guy that just got out of prison after 30 years. Some of my best friends and a stripper that sadly had relapsed
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